Remembering My Puddy Boy

To my beloved Puddy Boy ❤️

Mommy miss you so so much.

❤️❤️❤️

Thanks you for bring so much joy and love to all those year.

My darling boy, You are my forever and ever love

Lots of love

Mommy & Daddy

❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

 

Gotcha Day 2023

Mom always forgets my Birth Day ( September 3rd ) but Gotcha Day. Because I was a street kitty who was rescued by my famewly's neighbour. My birthday was set by the VET, it was not a real deal. 

The real deal is my Gotcha Day. It's always be the day of happiness. And me and mom would love to keep it that way.

As many of you already knew.We got a new member.... my bro, Huggie. He was a Thai street cat. He was rescued by one of cat cafe in Bangkok, Thailand ( AKA cat shelter  who find a home for kitties). Mom adopted him on September 10, 2023.

My mom has a reputation to be a forgetful person so we are going to set Huggie's Gotcha Day to be the same day as mine !

tee...heh... Angel Puddy'style !

To keep September 20 to be a happy day as always

To be a day we found love... more love.... lots of love

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Please welcome my bro, Huggie

and

Happy Gotcha Day to Huggie and to me, Angel Puddy

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Read Angel Puddy's Gotcha Day stories click here > Gotcha day

Back To The Past

Actual date : 16 July 2017

Puddy is sweet, I can never refuse him.

❤

Thanks so much for all your kindness. Thanks to love my boy, Mr. Puddy.

He is my forever boy.

It's hard to live without him.

As everyone who lost our beloved furry baby. We learn to live with it.

New Day, New Me ?

As you all know, I am ashes and bones now.

And

As we told you, my mom wants to divide my remaining

and put into several urns so I can be everywhere in a house.

BUT... I DO NOT EXPECTED THIS !!!

A fluffy bag ! ... And it looks like SMUDGE !!!

If you look on the left : you will see all color of furry bags. Mom bought from online shopping apps.

Reminder : Smudge is my next door kitty in Melbourne, Australia

After work, she put some of my ashes and bones in this creepy bag.

It is an unusual thing normal human would do. But that's my mom.

Well, it's okay for me, as long as she happy.

FOR COD SAKE ! WHAT'S CHOICE DO I HAVE !!

Good news for you guys and me.

We have to put up with her insanity... just for this one.

Next Post ... We going to back to the past..

LOVE

xox

Angel Puddy Boy

 

A Tin Cat

' When humans lost their beloved kitty, They seem drowning in sadness terribly. Some didn't even known those feeling is about to drag them down to a bottom of pain and caged them with agony' ~ Boom ( Puddy Cat's Mom )

It was my mom's words. It looks like she know grief so well, doesn't she ? but ...NOPE ! 

She just normal mom who is still grieving over her kitty.... ME !

Some hours she looks like she is okay....Like.. be normal herself ....Just a minute, she was crying... missing me, .... Hugging a tin,. .. Whining to a tin ' Oh...Puddy ! how I can do without you ? ' , ' Puddy you just not a cat, You are my baby ! "

Her emotional is like a roller coaster ride. It's probably like some human did explain a stage of grief.....

Healing is not linear, You are allowed to have days where it hurts a little more. ~ We the urban

But how many days you want to be like this, Mommy ???

Me as angel now. Of course, I never ever wanted to see my mom in this way. She has her own life to get going. I'm an Aussie Cat by birth. I'm an Aussie Aussie by nature. We are strong and we don't do sooky lala..when we have difficulties. We Aussie often says ' Well, 'That's life ! Get on with it, Mate ! ' We do what we have to do... That's it ! Simple !

What do I do to help mom ?

Well... me is not a kitty kitty anymore. I'm ashes & bones in a biscuit tin AKA ...' Angel Puddy ' 

You bet ! ...How can I help her ?

Listen to this...When I was alive and well. Long time ago, She read a lots about you guys.

What's about ???

We kitties can sense how our human is feeling. When they are sad..., You guys came over to your human and comfort them. Yeah... You ! You, kitties ! I'm talking to you ! You made me look BADDDD ! because I ran away from her...MOL 😹

Well, I don't like to see human crying.... Sometime mom even grabbed me and put me next to her. She had high hope me to stay by her side. She though I might changing my mind. And I might do.. like many good kitties do. To comfort human in their difficult times. NOP ! I has my own style... POOF !.... I'm GONE !!

Later my mom learned. If she wants me to sit next to her or be near her, She has to behave ! Be a good mood person ! Be a positive ! and then we can talk about it.

Now as you all know I am a dead cat. My mom is suffering dearly because of grief. Just like many of yours who has lost before.

I never wanted she to be like that. Seriously, I never wanted to give her that kind of vibes, A negative vibes !

🐈‍⬛ .. I, Mr Puddy or Angel Puddy now I am a cheerful happy kitty and fun. And I am a kitty. WE KITTIES, WE DO PURRS !  WE ONLY SEND POSITIVE VIBES 

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But now she seems forgets about it. Which is so sad for me who loves her . So she has to come back to her senses. She doesn’t need to live with sadness forever and ever. I have to remind her who I am and give her a job !

COD ! I couldn't believe I still have to do this even I am ashes and bones NOW! ... Mama Meow

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The third day after my dead. She still didn't get better. She embraced grief as if it's a new version of herself. She didn't even go to work ( Monday ). That worries me.

So in that morning when she put me, a tin on her chest, and randomly checked my FB notifications. I gave her some hints ! I hope she can read my mind.

Before I show you what the notifications. I have to tell you about the first day I was in a tin. My mom told me she wanted to divide my remaining and put them in several containers. And I will show up in many spots in our house, car and in an urn locket. That's for herself.

For me, She asked where else I wanna be ? In a garden ? and whereabout ? . She asked me to give her some signs.

So I answered her in the next morning by first FB notification she randomly clicked. 

Voila ! I want to be in a garden next to my CAT-NIP bushes

My mom doesn't have a green thumb,

she spent 8 years to grow Cat-Nip Plants for me successfully.

Here, in this garden bed.

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My Second hints,

Second randomly notification is...

Ta da my last handsome photo.

Many months I didn't have much good photo of me,

According to my sickness. This is my last handsome photo when I was alive as a kitty.

To remind my grieving mom,  I am a beautiful boy who always bright her day as she often sing me
' 🎶 You are my sunshine ☀️ You makes me happy 🎶 ' Mom should not be so sad, she can miss me. She can think about our good old day. And if she couldn't remember well, she can always go back to my blog posts. We have two blogs one is for our Melbourne's stories ' Everyday Cat Visitor ' or our second blog here  ' Mr Puddy + ' AKA ' Angel Puddy + '

She has to move on like many pawrents of my kitties friends who has lost. Mom has to get going and live her life.

After she sees these two photos, She knew I am talking to her. She gets it !

She is crying again. Not the tear of sadness but the tear that allowed her to heal. She got my messages 💕

Then she click FB home to see my friends daily updated.  First few posts of our friends she saw was a beautiful sun flower and many pink flowers were popping up to her eyes.

My mom always pick pink color for me even the tin she put my ashes and bones. It was nine pink peony flowers in a black background : Pink color means happiness. The Pink Peony is a symbol of love.

That made my mom realized I want her to be happy 🌸🌸🌸

To friends who we are cropped and post your photos without your permission. You can ask mom to remove if you are not okay : according to your privacy but please don't sue mom. She just want to thank you.

And the last photo shows one of our friend post, Talking about her difficult past, and now she has overcome her difficulties. And now she lives happily with big smile. I proud of her. That's another hints for mom " You can do it too ! "

My mom she got my messages with happy tears.

After that she went to have a shower. She heard a sound of tin pop. She guesses I tell her to hurry up. Warning her... She needs to put me ( some of my ashes and bones ) under the cat-nip bushes before the sun hit hard. She smiles and get dress. She says to herself " Even you are a tin cat, you are still bossy, Puddy ! ' She divined some of my ashes and bones and put in a garden where exactly I want to be.... 🐾 🐾

My remaining, ashes and bones.

I'm underneath my cat-nip bushes now.

And some parts of me, my mom poured inside a ceramic cat.

Its on the top shelves of our living room.

So I can watch her from here as well.

I might be gone as a cat, but I guess I can still be your forever.

Mom will keep posting about me from time to time.

There were some of my stories have not yet told. We hope you guys don't mind.

Lots of Love as Always 

💕💕💕💕💕

xox

Angel Puddy Boy

Cremation

Warning : This post has multi- pictures of my dead body and some story of spiritual belief. If you are sensitive with those. Please Skip, You have no need to continue.

My mom has no intention of to bring her suffering to all your pawrents. Concerning you to skip as well. You have no need, we do understand you completely.

My blog is always telling my stories since I first met her and will continue to do so. It was very personal. It's her tremendous pain. It's only for some friends who are okay to deal with this sensitive topic. * Comments are off *

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August 12, 2023 : The day I died

My death brought so much grief to my mom. All she wants is... 

to spend more time with me. She kissed me and hugged me as if I was alive. She hugged me as long as she could but time is crucial. Body without soul turning stiff very easily after one hour after bathed, dried and combed me. My body started to getting hard it was very difficult to bend. No matter how much my mom wanted to continue to hug me. She had to get over it and prepared my body to be fit in the freezer before my organs are breaking down. Especially we live in a hot humid climate. We planed to stay one last night together. No choice for mom she had too quickly prepare my body for cremation.

Puddy's eyes couldn't be closed.

Mom did a good job. I looked as if I were alive and just sleep.

My fur was still soft and silky

She put some fresh nip and bamboo leaves for me

because she know I love them.

At night mom often opened a door and talked to me.

A tiny magnet in front of a freezer door

Once mom put me inside a freezer and shut a door, and all of a sudden, she cried badly once she saw a little magnet in front of a door. She got this tiny magnet long time ago from her little sister. She really love it because it's tuxedo kitty. My mom has long distance eyesight so she often didn't see it because it's so tiny.

It was ironic. it looks exactly the same as the way she just put me in a box and in the freezer. My mom has never thought she have to put me in there. She cried heavily.

This freezer is going to haunt her. Telling her how she spent one last night with me.

She couldn't sleep. She thought all over about what was happened then she realized. When I passed away on hospital bed. She didn't put me in my carrier as she normally does but put me inside a car straight away next to her seat. My carrier went before me because it was a mess with my stinky pee and crumbs. She did call me home when she was carrying me but it was unusual thing we do after we visited a hospital.

In Thailand, most people do believe once soul leaves a body. Your family have to call the soul. Telling him/her to go home with you. Otherwise the spirit will wander around in nowhere. he/she will be lost there.

Mom got my body but she was not sure about my soul. Because she couldn't feel me. ( She had some experiences )

She started to get paranoid for no reasons. She keeps asking me to show her some signs... whatever signs ! ...To confirmed her I was home with her. It can be ...meow, purrs, walked with my nails, do the litter box, anything... Anythings

Quiet.... Nothing happens.

Mom was under her delusion because of grief and fear.

She set alarm clock at 4.10 am. and planed to go back to hospital with my carrier to call me back. It was going to be a huge embarrassment but she did not care. She wants to be sure I am home with my body and soul. No wonder around in nowhere.

If I not show her any signs of being home , mom absolutely stuck with her insane plan.

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August 13, 2023 : Cremation

My mom's words :

' Before my alarm clock on,  Puddy come to let me know I don’t need to go to hospital to get him again.

He is here .. he made two scratches at my door. I woke up but I didn’t open my eyes. I hold his pillow as if I hugged him. I pet him as I usually do. I told him today it’s going to be a traumatized day for him. I told him our schedule and what is cremation.

' It's going to be very scary experience for you, Puddy...It's going to be really hot. Don’t be scared, okay ? It might look like you are burning to hell but it's not. Its just the way your body turns into another form. The form of one being is returning to nature. To 5 elements : Earth, Water, Fire, Wind and Space. '

' Puddy, you have to wait there till a process finishes. Don’t go anywhere. Once you turned yourself to be ashes and bones, mommy is going to put you in an urn and we are going home together. I love you forever and I love you as always. Thanks to come to my life, thanks for brought me so much joy , thanks to be with me till this time, thanks to help me go through difficulties in life. Thanks to save me, my boy. My Puddy boy. I love you to the moon back and forward. You always be my sunshine whenever I think about you. I miss you my dear boy. You are the best cat in the world for mommy. You are one of the best things ever happened in my life. Love you very much, Puddy Boy '

"When the time has come,

A cremator couldn't turn on the oven for 15 min.

Well, I was scared as hell even I already dead ! ''

~  Puddy in an oven at 7.45 am. August 13, 2023

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Puddy : September 3, 2008 - August 12, 2023 ( 14 years old )

I was home now. Mom put my ashes & bones in this container because she thought it was beautiful just like me I'm a beautiful boy who bright up her life for 13 years. She picked a biscuit tin because it's not easy to break and she can hug me. Yeah... She is a nut case at this point.

My first real time, I met my mom was late January 2010. I was her neighbour cat,  I was a cat visitor. Mom started my first blog as ' Everyday Visitor ' on June 27, 2010 because of me. Obviously, she fall for me badly.

I love you, mom even you couldn't see me as before. And I knew you love me very much. Try not to cry, mom. Nothing you have to worry about me. I'm good. I am with all my kitties friends who went before me. I will watch over you from rainbow bridge or may be from my remains.

Thanks so much to all friends. To every single of you !

All your comments are greatly overwhelming. Thanks from a bottom of our heart for every comments you did for me and for my mom. In my blog or FB. It means a lots to us.

To Carolyn Retallick :

Your special request has accepted but I don't think it will be so soon. You still have a serious obligation with Mr. Poo. My advice " You stuck with that ! ", Don't you dare fear a future not yet come "

To Cecilia and Angel Madi : Me and mom love what you do with my name. It's really beautiful and make my mom has an emotional cry. She is really appreciated.

P  urrfect Tuxie MAN from head to toe

U were loved to the moon and back

D arling adventurous

D elightful commentary on your blog

Y ou gave all who knew you reasons to SMILE

To Mark's Mews

Thanks so much to share your grief with mom. She was crying hard for your great grief too. Hugs to you.

Lots of love as always 

💕💗💖

xox

Puddy Boy

Time to say good bye 💔

 

If love could have saved you, you would have lived forever.

Love you forever, Puddy..My darling boy

xox

Mommy

August 12, 2023

5.45 am. Mom woke up and saw me not alright. Mom quickly got me in a car. She drove as fast as she could to my animal hospital.

On the way to hospital, I breathed really fast and loud. Mom has never ever heard of this kind of breathing. It was really fast and loud. Mom told me “ Puddy, baby hangs in there, we almost there ! “

We almost reached hospital I got out to pee in the litter tray behind the backseat and I covered it. I always good at that. Do things properly for mom even now it was really hard for me to breathe. I made it to my carrier while mom was driving. My pee actually didn't go into a litter tray but all over my hinge leg. Not for long we reached at hospital.

Mom took a carrier ran inside, told the front it was emergency he couldn’t breathe. The front went to get a doctor and nurses. Mom took me in an emergency room. She put me on a hospital bed she told me “ Puddy you will make it. You are in a good hand now. Okay? ‘ 

My throat full with sticky phlegm. Mom took it out for me while everyone get an oxygen ready. They told mom to wait outside, and shut a glass door.

At the front of an emergency room. My mom did not blink. She stared a glass door with tears. She knew...even she didn't want to excepted it, A hard truth..

 ...then every shadow in an emergency room was stopped. No movements. It was 6.14 am. Saturday morning.

Door opened, the doctor gently told mom “ He stopped breathing, We did our best to saved his life. We used oxygen tubes to help him breathing. He is unable to breath by himself.. ‘ Silently my mom cried and told a doctor ‘ Let’s him go … 💔 It was really hard for mom but it is a time..

Mom reached me in an emergency room. She hold me and carried my wobbly body out. She gently told me “ Puddy, we are going home, my darling boy. You come home with me my baby boy “ Her tears are pouring it was hard to believe I was gone for real.

My leg was a mess because of my pee and a few crumbs stuck on my fur. I smelled not nice. Mom told me not to worry about it. When we were home, Mom bathed me, dried me, combed my fur, hugged me, kissed me last time.

Mom couldn’t bury me because it’s all concrete. My garden has a shallow ground. And One good reason …deep down in her heart, she always wants me close to her so it’s going to be cremation. Today is Thai king's mother birthday and it is mother day in Thailand. Not allowed funeral. We will do tomorrow. Mom doesn't mind. We have one more night together.

First photo of Puddy when he first came to my life. When I washed his body and dried him to be ready for his next journey. He left me one of his nail on a floor for me to keep. It's in a tiny container with blue lid.  ~ Boom, Puddy's mom

With an age of 14 years old Tuxedo kitty. I do my best, mom do her best, my VET and nurse did their best but it’s just a time for me to go… Sadly I couldn't make to my 15 years old birthday in this September.... I didn't yet use all my nine lives... It is a time my time ... to say goodbye 💔

Good bye mommy I love you very much
Good bye my friends I love you all
Thanks to be with me till now.

Mom and me are very appreciated all whole heart you gave me.

Lots of love
xox
Puddy boy

Hello New Normal

So far , So gooooood  😺

A week has passed...  

The evil running nose is NOT coming back for real.

Only sneezing a few time a day... Nothing more.

It's my new normal. It's absolutely fine for me.

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A Question from A Friend

Me and mom really love to share what kills my nose bug. But we did not know for sure. My mom couldn't pinpoint even she has records. What we can tell is.. my 2-week timeline before I get better. 

You guys might see something, we don't.

Two weeks ago...

Mom took me to see a VET because I stopped eating, drink less, no poo, less pee. I felt fatigue. I was struggling to breath. A doctor gave me three things:

1) Carborcycteine , a pill to made my mucus less sticky

2) Mirtazapine: Remeron to boost up my appetite ( Every 3 days )

3) Viyo recuperation fluid for a very sick kitties who couldn't eat by themselves.

She gave me those for 3 days then my nose started to bleeding, Mom stopped my pills.

The next day I was choked by food syringe and vomited all. Mom stopped Mirtazapine and recuperation fluid

💔 .... That day.... she didn't want to force me anymore

Mom began to ask and answer to herself ( yes, she is crazy pawson)

' When I was sick ... Did I really want to eat ? '

' No, I didn't feel like eating.'

' Do it really matter if I skip meals ? '

' It did not matter at all, actually I felt good because my guts works less. What I need is sleeping. ... Many times Puddy knows what it's best for himself...Great !.. Let's him be then. '

So she let me be ..

Eat when I feel like it. No more food syringe. No more forced ... I did eat few dried kibbles by myself after vomiting. I did drink. I did nap a lots. Mom still did brushing for me because I couldn't do it myself ( due to sticky nose )..., a massage, a gentle petting....then I slightly got better in a few days.

Breath Easy is a pill for kitties who has cold. It made from all natural ingredients. It used to get rid of my cold. Later on.. during my sickness, it seems my body has rejected all kind of cold medication even Lysine treats. All makes my nose bleed that's why mom haven't given me in a while.

When I slightly got better, mom's gut tells her..

'What da hell. .. His nose is bleeding anyway. Juts give him Breath Easy only for 3 days and let's see. It might stop his running nose. It used to work !  If not the rest can go in a bin '

My nose was still running ... Nothing changed.

The forth day of a pill, my nose was bleeding again as she expected ( A hypersensitivity reactions ). Then she gave me krill oil to reduce inflammation, and yogurt to fix my guts.

Next day she shared me coconut water. 

Everyday I only ate dried food/treats

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A few days later the weather is extremely hot, mom used a damp clothes to wipe me ( make sure my body temperature is normal ( head, chin, body but belly ).

In some points my nose was bleeding a lots till my mom secretly cried and searched for an urn. Next day, a miracle happens before she is making a purchase. All my sickness is GONE ! POOF !

Till now, me and mom still not sure what to make of this.


From my daily records. My symptoms turns whose one of those days :
1) The Extreme Weather or Barometric pressure changes
2) The Lunar Cycle (worse on the day before moon's phase )
3) The Fourth Day of Medication


I always feel better when ..
1) mom is brushing my fur
2) mom is doing massage my head & my body
3) mom is wiping me with damp cloth (cool down my body temperature), especially the back area near my tail.
4) night time sleeping with humidifier. ( on a very hot day : mom will add ice )
5) long nap


Mom can tell my temperature is not normal by
1) the heat from my forehead /chest /tongue : Mom will wipe me with damp cloth ( not too much )
2) the color of my tongue ( deep red means too hot / no poop ) : I will drink a lots , mom will wipe my butt with damp cloth.


Mom often counts my breathing rate while I sleep ( normal is 15 -30 per a minute ) If it's a bit fast ( but still normal ) , She will know I try to grab air so she will check my nose making sure nothing blocked. If nothing blocked it might be AC or Not AC. or I feel stressful. She will brush my fur. Once I purrs, everything will be fine.


I'm not sure you find the answer but I really hope it might be useful in some point... Purrs

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Stay healthy & Have a great weekend

Lots of love 

❤️

xox

Puddy Boy

🐾. 🐾 For pawrents who are interested to find out more , click the topics 🐾. 🐾. 

The lunar cycle: effects on human and animal behavior and physiology

Breathe Easy for cats : Respiratory support for asthma, cat cold and sneezing

11 Benefits of fasting for our pets

Feel It? 4 Ways Barometric Pressure Affects Your Health

Detox

One week has passed, and I'm still alive 

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Last time. I stopped drinking and eating by myself. Less pee and no poop for 5 days.

After three days syringe feeding and a drug. I was chocked. 

Yep, I chocked right after mom did syringe feeding and dropped a pill in my mouth. Like I'm going to die. I scared mom to death. She stopped my medication (Carbocisteine : Expetan )

Normal side effects : headache, nausea, vomiting, diarrhea, gastric discomfort and bleeding

Rare side effects : wheezing, tightness in the chest or throat, trouble breathing or meowing and mouth, face, lips, tongue or throat start swelling.

 

Taking too much Carbocisteine is unlikely to harm ( from my records 3 days max.)

The forth day, she fed me recovery food from syringe, I barfed badly. 

Now no more syringe feeding. ( drug, food & water )

For mom, ' Kitty Barf ' is a good signal. It's detox. After that, I ate, and drink by myself. Not a normal level but it's a signal of hope. My weight slightly gain. Yesterday, it's 7.15 kg ( 15.76 lb ). I made my products for two days now ( few tiny little poop ). But my blocking noses still be a problem. But we have hope.

Me and mom is very appreciated all your kind words, good thought, purrs and prayers. Thanks to you all. We can't get back to you yet because mom and me are very exhausted. We will try our best to keep it up and stay with pawsitive vibes.

Lots of love  ❤️❤️

Puddy Boy

My mom's worst fear

( Image of Puddy, A week before he is getting worst )

Hello dear friends 🐈‍⬛

Me get to the point... to tell you all...

It's likely that my life will seep away... soon or not ?

Me and mom really don't know...

but my furry body starts to show many bad body signals.

🍂 

How it happens,

Last three weeks ago, My nose stopped bleeding. I was doing really well even I still have a leaking nose ( one nostril ) but I can eat, drink, make my products, clean myself, sharpen my claws and I have some energy to have my morning walk ( short patrol ).

From that point on, me and mom thought me can live .. like an old mancat for many years to come.

Then.. the weather turned bad .. a sudden and extreme change in temperature. It was really really hot for a couple days ( 38°C/ 100.4°F ) even we have AC.

After that my nasal discharge turns sticky...like really sticky. But this time, mom couldn't do anything to help me because its nasal cavity.

😿 

Not for long... 

My furry body denied everything. I stopped drinking, eating, peeing less and no more poop.

Mom took me to see a doctor ( his name is ' Bird ' ), Mom told him my history of a chronic cold. Showing him her daily notes about my symptoms. Asking for help desperately. 

" His discharge is very sticky.. any medication to ease?  "

" Anythings you can inject him to boost up his appetite or rehydrated ? "

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After we got home : mom just found out actually the VET can treat me by injecting the fluids under my loose skin but he didn't offer me at all. He knows I am dehydrated.

He gave me a medication to help my nasal discharge ' Carbocysteine 375 mg : Brand Flemmex )' , my booster  ( Mirtazapine 15 mg : Remeron ), and Viyo Recuperation ( the VET forgot to give mom at the end. Luckily, mom asked for it because this one is a game changer, it made me drink. )

Later, I slightly get better. I starts to drink by myself... not normal level but it's enough to make mom smile. I made my products after 5 days ( tiny little poop like made by a kitten ). I didn't eat by myself but mom can feed me by syringe.

We are looking forward with hope...

Today... my other nostril starts leaking. Now I have both . In the afternoon, I got bleeding nose. My mom starts to lose her hope. She starts to talk none sense to me...

' Puddy, I love you very very much. But if you are suffering, You can let's go. I only wish you peace and happiness. I understand if you must go, don't endure the pain. I will be very very sad but I will be okay. I love you my darling boy. and it's forever, remember that .. love you'

I didn't wait for mom to finish her sentence ...

My style... Puddy's style, I never coped with her being sooky la la. ( that's why mom always think I don't understand what she said ) I deal with a moment. I do my best. I walk to my glass. Mommy quickly follow me. ( She have to hold a glass for me, I need a special level to drink 

😹 MOL

I don't know what the future hold. I just want to thanks you all for being my friends for this long. Thanks for your supported even me was not making a regular visit.

Lots of love 💕 

xox

Puddy Boy 🐈‍⬛